College is boring. No interesting people, no exciting people, beside some of the international students that attends the college. I love their accents especially, I find it very charming. I also like interacting with them and asking them about their country. But I feel bad for them since they are paying about 4x times more for tuition. I usually go to the gym after my classes are over and this one time a Chinese girl approached me asking where the student store was. Oh, by the way she had really nice eyes, she was also really pretty. But anyways back to the story! So I showed her the way to the student store and I ended up helping her find her classes books. At first glance I already had a feeling that she was a new international student due to her accent and her English was that well but our commutation was actually pretty good. She showed me her class schedule which consisted of the books she needed for those classes, and the tuition cost for the classes. One ESL class costed about 1,000 US dollars and she was taking 4 classes. I felt really bad because I’m only paying 400-500 US dollars for 5 credits which is like a class. This is also a Community college was tuition is a little less than University. I asked her if she plans on attending a University and she stated that she wanted to go to Seattle University where she will major in some of science program. It usually takes two years to actually transfer to a university If you take 15 credits per quarter which is about 3 class. She will probably have to pay about 12,000 USA for 4 quarters for two year which is about 24,000 US dollars at A community college. It is sad for them to pay that much compared to US citizen but i could see why. My friend once told me that international students “are either rich or poor”. She told me her name but It was really hard to remember and pronounce and I’m bad with names so I can’t even remember her name as I’m writing this. But then I just left to go work out. I see her now and then at the school, a wave there and chitchat there. But Kind of feel sorry for her paying so much for school.
“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.” - Dr Seuss
Knowing where you came from has always been an important aspect in my family. I moved to America when I was 5 years old, and since then I’ve have never visited Vietnam ever since. My parents would always ask me “Would you like to back to Vietnam and visit?”. My reply was always silent. I have tons of family still living in Vietnam, the majority of them were there when I was born. They raised me, cared for me for the first five years of my life. My repayment for them was forgetting them. I can’t even remember a single family member name, nor their face. I can’t even remember the dog I had. I can barely speak my language, and communicating with my parents can sometimes be a challenge but I guess over the past few years they became more fluent with English so our commutation has gotten better.
My little sister whom was born here in America knows better Vietnamese than I do. She can even speak it better and she even went back to Vietnam to visit in 2009. Isn’t that shameful? I can’t even write or read in Vietnamese. But everything comes down to me not having enough pride in my own country. My name is the only real pride I really have of my country. When my family became a citizen, I had the choice to change my first name (Kiet) to whatever I wanted. But I guess in the end it stayed the same because it is a name that I lived with all my life. I feel shameful sometimes. I feel disappointed in myself and most importantly I feel unattached from my culture and the place where I came from. But you gotta start somewhere right? and this is the time I start taking pride into my country. I plan on visiting Vietnam the summer of 2013 and that is official. I will learn every single aspect of Vietnamese. I don’t want to be that one person in my family that forgot where they came from.
Even though winter QTR is almost over ( still gotta do my research paper =( ), I’m kind excited for spring QTR. Because that’s when i get my CAR.
We live our life’s without realizing the importance of our surroundings. Every mistakes we made in our life end up affecting or even changing our surroundings. By surroundings I mean society, friends, families, and even strangers. Think about it. Mistakes are of course inevitable but I just don’t get why people choose to make that mistake even though they know the impact/ consequence they will cause. Why dive into a prefect relationship and try to ruin the bonding, love, and trust they worked so hard to develop? Have respect for people relationships, don’t ruin their relationship because of your selflessness emotions and desires to be with that person. Think of the consequence before you act based on your own desires. SMH homewreckers.
Just one of those nights where thoughts flow constantly into my mind. I think then become restless! Lucky me, I don’t have class tomorrow =)!
I’m so sucked into weight training that all I think about nowadays is hitting the gym and lifting like a muscle-head. At first it was just for fun, going with my friends now it has become something that I cannot forget about for 1 second. All my friend say I have gotten bigger, and I’m satisfied but idk, I don’t feel like it’s enough. For the past 2 months I have not skipped a day at the gym. I always made time for it even if I didn’t have time. I would skip hanging out with my friend just to lift. I know it’s horrible but lifting is like on my mind 24/7. Then there’s school… I’m slowly getting uninterested in school, it’s kind of disappointing. Even though i’m doing fine in two my classes but Bioanthropology has been killing me. I just have no interest in that class and it’s just so hard for me to focus in the class. I hate two hour lectures classes. My mind wanders off during the lecture and I become bored, then I tend to just fall asleep. I hate myself for not paying attention to the teacher, and I hate asking my friends for help because I’m just never use to asking anyone for help. I hate leaning on others because I hate having my friends see a weak side of me. It’s just so hard for me to get stuff done in Bioanthropology. Maybe because it’s a science course and I’ve always had a huge problem when it comes to science related classes. I just never get them, even in high school. I hated science. Along with this class, I totally bombed my mid term… 64/100, my day was shit when I saw it on the gradebook. I felt like just staying home and hiding under my blanket. It was my fault for not studying hard enough but it was just so hard for me to study for a class that I have no interest in. Only reason why I wanted to take this class is to be with my friends. They’re interesting people and they make me happy, I probably would of dropped out the class already if it wasn’t for them. This issue with science class has been following me since middle school. I hate it. Kind of sad that i’m at this stage… Sorry for the any grammar mistake, i’m just so out of it to even correct anything =(.
I learn not to lean on other people because I’m afraid that they might not be there for me. That’s why I don”t have best friend but rather close friends. My parents always tell me if you want a successful life, stand on your own two feet, accomplish things with your own two hands. Walk straight towards the future you desire, and not the regrets you have in life. Feel free to lean on other people when you’re confident enough. But always remember that you’re the only one that can shape and define your own happiness and future. Always expect the best, never drown yourself in tears, always keep a smile and move ahead and only stop for those who you care about and love. Lastly, remember that you are you.
Never let your Sadness overcome your happiness.
Never let your regrets overcome your success.
I came to realize that fearing death is pointless. Having fear on the other hand is dangerous.
I want a girlfriend but at the same time I don’t. I’m afraid of not being able to give her the happiness she deserves.
“try harder” are words we hear daily. When we do reach that point, we get “you’re trying too hard”. I just don’t ever get this. Can someone explain to me why this occurs?
“I want to live a normal life”. Fuck that pussy shit. Live a mind blowing, Impelling, interesting, astonishing, breathtaking, sensational, dangerous life. A life where every moment counts. Live above the normal life. Live a life with no regrets. When I’m on my dying bed, I want to be like “dam my life is finally over, shit wasss off the hook and crazzy.” I want to die with a fucking fat ass SMILE, and say “it was a good life”. So fuck living a normal life. Live it big or die regretful.
I have never been more disappointed, angry, and most importantly irritated in my life. I hate when people don’t respect themselves. To me, respect goes a long way. Respecting others is of course a must, but not having respect for yourself is something I really despise. How can I expect you to respect me when you can’t even respect yourself? Respecting yourself defines who you are as a person, and it defines your personality.
RESPECT, RESPECT, RESPECT!
